You are refreshing and vital as the air, graceful and tender as sparkling water, lustrous and consuming as flames of fire, generous and enveloping as space and stable and deep as the earth.. you elemental woman are perfect beauty itself. *Ancient essay on the five elemental women of Indian mythology*


Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Tired little me*

* Sorry this is me venting like a nut..thank you for reading :) *
Everyday I try and be the person I want to be, I help others, I am polite and considerate, but some days..UGH! I am dealing with people who won't to believe that I am an evil, conniving person simply because I don't agree with them. All of you who read my blog know about the issues I have been having with my mother..she has been out of prison for a few weeks now and has done everything she can to stir up drama. I have kept my distance and not given into my bitchier tendencies. Also I have not made any derogatory comments or slanderous claims and yet she has gone out of her way to call family and her friends and tell them these outrageous lies about me..things that I supposedly say when I am not even talking to her..sigh*
Things have gotten to the point where my Grandmother is calling down the wrath of God upon me...geez* My Pagan faith is going to be the next thing on the chopping block and this little Witch is not backing down. I do not threaten Divine wrath or even mundane nuisances..I just want peace. I don't wish anyone harm not even those who see themselves as my enemies, I just want the right to live my life as I see fit. My Faith has given me strength, I hold the God and Goddess close to my heart and present in daily life...with them I feel hopeful.
As each day goes by I wonder if maybe I should sacrifice my personal goals of being who I want to be everyday and just give in and be the Bitch every seems to want me to be..but then I think I maybe to stubborn to give into anyone. ^_^


  1. Well, every now and again we do have to kick some butt, simply to make sure no one wlaks over us. That has got nothing to do with being bitchy, but everything with protecting yourself and your family.

  2. Hang in there, sweetheart. You know who you are and that's what matters. You answer to no one but you and your deities. If your mother is this much of a detriment, it may be time to do a ritual to cut ties with her or to simply 'shut her up'. Either way, I know you'll do what's right for you. Just don't let her or anyone else destroy your joy and peace. They haven't earned that right. Hugs

  3. Thank you Diandra for reminding me "doormat" is not written on my forehead.
    Thank you Kallan for being understanding and supportive..hugs right back.
    I am blessed to know you both.

  4. Hang in there. People who feed off the dramatic will lose steam if you can wait them out. Don't give up the things you love about yourself and try answering all accusations with "I'm sorry you feel that way". You know where I am if you want to vent. Love you!

  5. Mandy your the best! I am doing my best to wait it out I have my Buddhist monk cap
    Love ya too :)