You are refreshing and vital as the air, graceful and tender as sparkling water, lustrous and consuming as flames of fire, generous and enveloping as space and stable and deep as the earth.. you elemental woman are perfect beauty itself. *Ancient essay on the five elemental women of Indian mythology*


Saturday, January 7, 2012

Feelin' a little different*

Do you ever feel different not just a little odd, but really different? Also not the different that happens when you go through puberty, that change can drive anyone crazy and feel out of sorts. Sometimes, when I listen to people talk or watch movies or tv or read articles, blogs I feel like I'm completely distanced from everyone. Not to say I don't feel the way everyone else does or that don't go through the same things..I do, but it's the way I deal with things and see the world seems very odd. I don't know maybe I am just in a weird mood today, but it feels lonely when you can look at the someone else's life in there perspective and understand why they made certain choices, not necessarily agree with those choices, but understand. When I try to explain that to people they always say things like "Your a better person then me" or " I don't know how you can be so calm, I would have went off already." True empathy is a very lonely business.
Sigh..oh well..I'll go eat some chocolate and maybe I'll feel better. The blues have hold this girl today and sugar may just be the cure.


  1. Sugar is never the cure.

    I think I understand where this is coming from. When listening to people, I try to understand why they are saying/doing what they are saying/doing. Friends who experience me doing this often say things such as: You are weird. Or: How can you not be angry at that? Or (my favorite): You've got no back bone.

    To which I think: Well, if you think that is the case... I don't have to explain to anyone.

  2. You are right sugar is not the cure, but when I'm down I'm willing to give it a I am slowly learning that people are just going to think I'm nuts, but I still feel out of sorts alot of the time. Thank you for understanding. ^_^